At the time of writing the cards have evolved over a 12 year period.

Thinking back through the years brings a smile to my face. When I first created this deck there were twenty-eight cards. I thought that my creation was a simple thing that I could use for myself and share with friends.

This project began in a caravan in Waratah Bay, in the middle of winter. At the time I was reeling from the emotional aftermath of a relationship that was unspeakably self-destructive. I needed to leave the city to sort myself out and it seemed like the perfect place. It was extremely cold by the ocean. The caravan park was deserted and I was left alone. I had thought about making a deck of cards for a while and it seemed time to do this journey. On my way out of the city I picked up some art supplies. I thought I'd give it a go.

I will never forget the intensity that compelled me to create. Not really knowing where to start, I prayed for guidance. I spent many hours of the day walking the beaches, exploring the forest and myself. The choice to create these cards was making me look at my life intensely.

This was the beginning of a major ending for me, the challenge to end the suffering caused by my negative self perception. I was choosing to heal through realization of my greater potential. It was like nature herself was pushing me, showing me, inspiring me and teaching me.

I was seeing myself more expansively within the natural order of things. I became more aware of the cycles of life and death and how important they are. The power of the elements were working with me, helping me to heal and understand myself. My perception of life was deepening, shifting and changing in front of my very eyes.

I soon realized that I was there to do a personal journey with these cards. In earnest I set myself the task of one card a day. Each day the title for the card would come to me in my morning meditation and then I would set out to walk.

The walks became hikes, the hikes became expeditions and often I would not return to the caravan until nightfall. Miraculously, by the end of the walk nature would show me the image that represented the challenges I was facing.

I realized that these ideas and images were being created through me. As long as I didn't allow my mind to overwhelm me and I maintained an open heart to the inspiration of nature, there was no struggle. The work would simply flow through me.

Relinquishing the struggle was my greatest challenge and the beauty of it was, that I was healing through the awareness. I felt my pain with insane intensity. My grief surfaced with my changing perception, as I realized I had been stuck in an illusory view of my value as a human being. The pain would always pass and the insight gained was liberating. The beautiful experiences I was having with the essence of the earth kept me going. I worked through the night like a crazed woman and during the day I journeyed.

I recall a particular experience that illustrates the magic that was happening around me. I had taken to the beach one day and was creating a healing mandala on the shore. I recall my heart was breaking. I was extremely upset and I was finally committing myself to ending this suffering. As a result of my misguided perceptions of love in relationships, I was in an awful situation with a man I desperately loved. I was finally realizing that the only thing to do was to see the truth, feel the pain, forgive and let him go. Loving him meant allowing him to take a separate path to mine. There was no real future for us.

I remember I was just at the point of feeling the forgiveness within my heart, when out of nowhere, I mean the middle of nowhere, a man appeared running down the beach yelling to me to turn around and see the dolphins. I turned around and the sea in front of me was teaming with dolphins surrounding a whale.

My heart exploded with love. It was overwhelming. The love that came over me, through me and around me, reminded me. It reminded me of the true essence of unconditional, universal love. I knew it was going to be alright. I knew that I was getting what I needed and that somehow everything was changing.

The whale and dolphins swam on. I turned around to the man and he was nowhere in sight. As quickly as he had appeared he had also disappeared. If it weren’t for him I wouldn't have experienced what had happened. I felt I was blessed. That night the rebirth card was created with the whale and dolphins on it. It took me a long time to truly let go of that relationship, but in that moment I was reborn.

In just over three weeks I emerged from my coastal hideaway, transformed, with a set of twenty-eight cards. Little did I know of what lay ahead. Little did I know of what I had begun. There were another 76 cards to be created, a book to be written and an amazing journey to be undertaken.

As a result of my continuing quest to realize myself, I have journeyed far and wide. So have the cards. They have been created in locations all around Australia . Each card in the deck is testimony to my lessons, experiences and insights.

The actual creation of the images and book evolved over seven years. The book has been rewritten 4 times, redesigned three times; the design of the backs of the cards has changed 3 times. They have been printed and laminated, shared and workshopped. Now they have been taken to the next level of their presentation. They have worked in amazing healing spaces with groups of incredible people.

I learned how to use a computer for the first time writing the book, I learned all about business writing a business plan to try and get them funded for mass production, I learned how to write a publishing submission trying to get them out into the world. I learned counselling skills grounding knowledge of how to work with people in a more professional manner and I have learned so much about consciousness and people in the many hundreds of readings I have done. Mostly I have been challenged to be true to my responsibilities as the co creator and guardian of this awesome tool.

Throughout the process I have been challenged to have the courage to believe in the work. It has taken a lot of maturing to grasp the wisdom to understand how amazing they truly are. There have been times when I really thought it would never have come even this far and there have been times when I have found renewed strength. My greatest challenge in all of it was my disbelief and lack of trust in my own purpose and potential.

An experience from a number of years ago comes to mind. The battle between having faith in myself and not led me to a cathartic turning point where whilst I was rejoicing in the frivolities of a party, I neglected to listen to my inner knowing warning me of an imminent disaster. I awoke the next morning to find that all of the original art works of the cards had been stolen out of my car. At the time I had no copies of them and I had to face the fact that it was all gone. I had refused to listen to my inner knowing and I paid a very heavy price.

The cards were taken from me because my doubts and fears bred disrespect for them. I was wishing that I could be someone else, somewhere else. It all just seemed too hard, but when they were gone it was horrifying. My grief was indescribable as I realized that I had given up the most significant work of my life because I was too scared to embrace it.

I prayed like I had never done before and I promised the universe that if the work was returned to me I would do everything I could to complete the journey with the integrity they deserved. In an incredible chain of events they were returned to me 24 hours later intact and unharmed. They had been found under a bush, dumped in someone’s backyard.

I stand true to my promise nine years later. Since then I have written the accompanying workbook and created many more cards. My focus fluctuates at times as I go through the challenges of making them available, but I choose to continue the path towards realizing the dream.

They are now available albeit in limited quantities as I am still essentially making them myself. I trust however that they will fulfil their destiny in their own way and I look forward to being the witness to the next phase of their amazing journey.